Are we all hopelessly misunderstood? Maybe, but we're not complaining.
For me, it goes like this: If I'm misunderstood, it's obviously attributed largely to the fact that I am the textbook definition of an introvert. However, I've come to think lately that it also has to do with the fact that I don't say what I really think. This is different from refraining to say what I think altogether for the fear of my ideas being rejected(an introvert tendency). It has a lot more do with the fact that I feel it's immodest, almost self-exalting, to tactlessly babble all the unbridled opinions people have. Result? I usually end up expressing more superficial thoughts; concepts that are generally uncontested and well-received. I think that my tendency to do this has imposed a "social cap" of sorts on people's perception of me, believing that those superficial thoughts are the extent of my... general capacity(?).
Like I said, I'm not complaining. Blame it on my inability to strike a balance: Plenty of people can say down-to-earth, heart-to-heart words that reflect what they truly feel without being the immodest, self-exalting jerk I mentioned earlier. But personally, I find it difficult. Even saying all of this is me going out on the proverbial limb. Just sitting here "expressing" all of this makes me realize how I should probably take a number and get in line with the millions of other people who feel the same way, and how being concerned with this subject at all is a blatant show of just how self-important I really am. Gosh, this proverbial limb is snapping. Time to jump off!
I'm sure there's a word for people who do this. Ideas?
6 comments:
Eugene, I think because you are an introvert it's hard to 'read' or 'analyze' you. Heh. To tell you the truth I was actually intimidated by you at first because you don't express your thoughts and ideas fully OUT LOUD. I don't think it's a bad thing. Sometimes people (like me) need to know when to shut up and just listen. Oh oh oh, maybe it's because you don't have a lot of face expressions! Haha Usually when someone does something out of the norm they kinda laugh or smile...but you just have that mook dook han pyo jung. haha. :D Either way, being an introvert is NOT a bad thing. It just shows that it takes a lot more time and effort to get to know you better. :)
I feel guilty... lol you and I are so unlike. We should just get married and create the most confused and diverse children EVER! But doesn't it feel good to just write it all? But it feels nice to know exactly where your coming from....
And yujung... the reason he doesn't smile or laugh is because he's in execution mode.... you'll see all the smiling and laughing during eugenes 'visualization' mode. Right before he does something he breaks down imagining what he's about to do. Eugenes a very serious performer, helps him concentrate
HAHAH OHHHH is that it?!? PUhahahaha that is so.......weird and funny at the same time. LOL
jung - lol did i scare you? i'm sorry, i'll put more animation in the face! i suppose i do have that 'critical' look on my face, like i'm dissing everyone in my head. well, it's not like that! y'all alright ;)
andy - i can already see one problem with us having children: we TOTALLY disagree on the subject of having children before armageddon comes!! duh.
oh, and that we're both guys.
oh yea i remember that lengthy and very controversial discussion i feel we didn't finish. But it was so lengthy i don't think i want to try to finish it, besides it can't be finished. Our points are way way way to well thoughtout and entrenched it would take forever.
Children... I still can't imagine.
I made a new blog. :)
http://myjoyofbaking.blogspot.com/
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